Well, I could start off saying that I will hide behind my camera and looking glass the whole time and subconsciously relive what I did 7 months prior. Whether it's going to be similar or something far from comfortable, I have put my neck out and dove off the dock.
I remember making decisions as a child that were anything but thought out. Sara and Julie, Lauren, I and many others were at the Up North Cottage,. Late night we took a swim, in all of our clothes, and literally froze to death. As most of us slithered our way in the freezing cold water, Sara dove off. I remember looking deeper into the water, and seeing spear like metal rods, that she so unknowingly dove in between. I was terrified, but later realized that all things come together for a reason.
Now, I meditate on most ideas before action occurs. I have always been impulsive, to a great extent, and had an attitude that I would make it through anything that happened to me. I have learned to slow that roll down a bit and digest what haphazard thoughts may pop up. I have also come to realize there are pros and cons to everything decision that you make, this one not excluded. If I would have made this decision two months ago, I may not have ever went through with it. If I made it 2 months from now, I might not be around to live it out. I have made my decision at the best possible time. There are no regrets that will come with a choice that will further empower my future to do as I so happily wish. Ahh yes, another chapter. Everything will be ok. I rest in this moment and belief that it all will be taken care of, and I will not hide behind my camera, I will face it head on!!
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